Tuesday, July 26, 2005
so i sit and watch
as others are picked before me
it leads me to wonder
i ask myself:
"what's it they got that i don't?"
a lil' voice answers:
"the courage."
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don't you ever wonder why certain things happen?
why is it someone is luckier than you?
prettier than you? more buff than you?
and why are you made this way and not that way?
watching america's next top model was kinda weird. like most of the girls have a child, and they're what, below 20? some even have 2. not saying that it [read: teenage pregnancies] is bad, but it's just changed that's all. the whole world's changed. ok. but i have to admit that they showed a lot more blacks this season, to only kick them out later to select 90% of the 14 finalists to be whites. damn.
my mum asked me, "did you ever want to be someone else?'
and all i could think about was:
"why would i want to be someone else. because there's so much of me that i don't know. mysteries keep people alive, it is the unknown that people often question." now i'm thinking about the island.
anyway, i told my mum: "no. i've never thought about being someone else. why should i?"
i guess our parents have their insecurities too, they are the parents: expectations are to be good, powerhoused, teaching, moral value imparters, blahdeblah. i think they just want us to be everything that society expects us to be, everything that their parents expected them to be. my opinion is parents have it tough. imagine my mum, she's got 4 to deal with. heh.
i've been rather rebellious these past few days, snappy and answering back. hmm, something's eating at me, you'd think, and i can't seem to put my finger on it. maybe it's just the rebellious teen streak finally rearing its ugly head? you'd think?
here's something awfully random:
god is like the air; you can't see him,here's something awfully random:
but you know he's there, because you can feel him.
randomness over.
topic for today is: my friend got me wondering about why god does whatever he does.
"the wonder of it all lies within the souls of those who believe."
- it's just a sentence to ponder.
why does he torture souls of the innocent, of those who have yet to hear of his word. well if they don't hear him, they lose their opportunity. and then one fine day, they die. question: does that mean they go to hell? just because they didn't get to hear about him? then i figured, if everyone knew his word, what was the drive or the spirit that those who knew about him going to be? i realised, those who know of his word, and want to spread his word, would tell. and if everyone knew of him - who was there to tell? where would the drive be? where would the passion lie? would there be a passion? how can you have passion with no purpose right? right?
there are people you can save, and there are people you can't.
you can't save everyone in the world, but you can change those whom you meet.
and meet them you shall, my friend. meet them you shall.
you can't save everyone in the world, but you can change those whom you meet.
and meet them you shall, my friend. meet them you shall.
: )