happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to sarah
happy birthday to you!today, 1st december 2005, marks the beginning of a now-legal-at-18 life for my bestest and dearest friend sarah ng li wen. the woman is finally legal! and believe me, this has been a long time coming.
to my girlfriend, bestest pal, truest bluest girl, and the sunshine of my not so sunshiniest days, sarah, i wish you the happiest and biggest 18th birthday ever. thank you for being the very lady you are.
cheers to living the life you want. i love you with all my heart.
p/s: time to scrap off that little '0' on your id, and paste it to your forehead. for waltzing on into clubs, but never leaving me in the line - thanks.
how time flies
the bonds that tie
never left our lips
to meet again
was a fate well served
and deserved
now, just another 16 more days to mine. just you wait and see.
if i could turn back time, i'll go wherever you will go. if i could make you mine, i'll go wherever you will go. - the calling
chances
take them, throw them away
but they're given anyway
how do you want to use yours?
my friend got married yesterday.
hearing aid: 987
song of the moment: break down
i need this old train to break down
oh please just let me please break down
i want to break down, but i can't stop now
let me break on down
but you can't stop nothing, if you don't have anything
you can't stop wishing, if you haven't let go
keep on rolling, put the moment on holdi loathe weddings. only because i think i'm never going to get married. i'll really be the shrivelled old lady with 27 cats. damn.
i think weddings just bring a rollercoaster of emotions. for example, you enter the sanctuary are are awed by the beautiful layout. then overwhelmed by the number of people there. later you are irrinoyed because everyone is just acting happy for someone they barely know. and after that initial emotional overload, then comes the wait for everyone to get settled, and you get bugged because you think that you've got better things to do than sit on the benches and wait on 2 people! the ceremony starts and all you can think about is how fat the bride looks or how the dress in not flattering on her. then you think about when you are going to get married, and just frown. if not that, then you think about the guy/girl you are dating, and realise how you don't want to see them at the end of the aisle, and you frown somemore. the pastor or the minister in charge reads a passage for the bride and groom about love and life (which somehow always seems to annoy the crap out of me, especially when they choose the one which says that the woman is to submit to their husband). during the exchange of vows, everyone's holding their breath, and sucking up all the air in the surroundings that you don't have enough air and want to faint or die. so once air is replenished with all the carbon dioxide, everyone smiles because now that it's been said - the declaration of eternal love. you smile too, because there's something in the air, definitely contagious.
oh how i loathe weddings.
"to love and to cherish. to love is to cherish. to cherish is to love forever."
the best quality of your other half should be their ability to love. to love with sensitivity, compassion and understanding. that is love.
i hate you
i loathe you
i dismiss all thoughts of you.
today was a shitty day.
i'm terribly sorry to my classmates for blowing up at 'em. really i am. i hope you accept my sincerest apologies. the wrath of valerie has no end
sometimes.
zouk was aiights tonight, so many parties so little time.
at zouk i got on the podium, stang asked me get off, i refused and coyly asked, 'why?' his answer?
cause i asked you to. right.
out of the blue, a familiar face in the crowd below me. trying to place him took a good 10 seconds because i was simply too tired to think. when i finally recognised him and gave him a name, i was surprised! i got off the podium in a flash. i think stang was kinda upset that he couldn't get me off by asking.
ok, i know the party at fullerton was scandalous, and real wild. wished i was there, but i had another in the wings. too bad i missed it : ) damn. tmtc, we'll hang another time aiights. missing you guys tons. actually, i am missing a lot of my friends nowadays, something's up.
my birthday's 21 days away. not too long now.in the end, tis' the bottomline that matters.
fullstops are not messages, they're declarations of empty promises.
my planned night out to zouk's mambo didn't happen because i am still under 18.
wait
waitwait.
it's only 23 days away! under one month. weeeee. i can tahan, renn, endure. : )
so what did i do after getting all dressed up? i met stang and couple of his friends from outtatown at bar none. we sure had fun and i'm glad i'm home before 2 cos that'll give me plenty of time to sleep in and get up for the drama that would unfold in jello's class.
school work's piling, but i gotta dmit that i've got a great team of friends i'm working with. a team fusion, workable, together to achieve goals. oh goodness, here i am rattling about leadership (at least i know classes in mm are paying off.)
kiss me.
kiss me not.
giving up is a sign that you are not capable of continuing in strife to a better end.
we were trying to think up of cartoon characters that fit the person. juan-irrinoying-chan (so named by i can't remember who) couldn't find a character for me. think you could? drop a tag. : )
yes,
irrinoying. the new word by zigs. now bask in the light would you?
what luck! ren and i went to town for dinner with xb and adel (it was supposed to be dinner to celebrate felix's birthday - postponed! owell.) anyway, we went to get ren's bangs cut after dinner. her new bangs look gor-gee-ous! : ) we walked by this shop, to notice some really adorable looking pairs of sneaks, lo-and-behold! a beautiful pair of shoes in green and yellow are propped high and at eye-level! it fitted ren like cinderella's glass slipper, and we knew there and then we had to get it. but this after looking at the guy who was running the shop, who is quite the *swooon* charming fellow. hahaha.
ren had to withdraw cash, so we walked all the way to scotts, giving us plenty of time to plan our mode of attack (yes, we were going to pounce on him and devour him in his nice green top.) mr. shoeman likes green. shrill giggles were definitely heard from our side of the border when we told us that. ren and i
like LOVE green.
when we got back to the shop, the first thing he said was "i think you two are cute too." i could die there and then, either from embarrassment or flattery. oh-my-gosh, we were two giggling laughing girls, enjoying the moment. he also found us interesting and fascinating, and he found me funny!! no one's every called me funny, and believe me, i think it's a compliment! weeeee. i have died. : )))
i told ren we could watch a horror flick and i would still be smiling. we caught tom yum goong at lido in the end. urgh. i hate the sound system, the seats, the theatre! their service kinda (underline kinda) make up for it tho. tom yum goong was fantastic - he practically broke the arm of every person he fought (and he fought alot of people.) also, tony jaa, the main character the movie is set around has about 4 lines in the entire movie. "where's my elephants?!" was the one he screamed most of the time.
i dreamt about this boy
i've only met twice
i can't remember his name
nor the colour of his eyes
i can't remember my dream
but i know his face
the morning after i wake
dark rings around my eyes
for having slept not a second
his nameless face still haunts
for when the strangeness dawns
i wonder if he dreamt me too.
the eyes are the same
softness and of softest brown
piercing mine,
the familiar smile
is the very illusion
of my longest lost
valentine
friday meant the end of week 3 and the submission of the paper on leadership.
dee and i did something. we dressed up in t-shirts and shorts and slippers on a friday (clubbin' night), and went to town at midnight. hahaha. it was... say liberating! : ) this has been added on valerie's have-to-do list.
dressing in your most kiamkiamest outfit and go to town. be unglam.
liberate yourself.
we watched emily rose. and in the middle of the movie, when emily was being compressed into her bed, i was glad i had dee that night.
when we reached back to hers, it was just before 3a.m. (you will know every important after watching emily rose) brushed my teeth, noticed it was 3a.m. on the toilet clock, perked up trying to listen for something/anything/everything. didn't hear anything out of the ordinary, but i did smell something. something burning. i asked dee, "do you smell it? something's burning." once the words lef lips, i wished i didn't say it. "no. i didn't mean burning. something smells." dee laughed, and cocked her head, "something's burning?" chills ran down my spine just then. she pointed out that her dad likes to burn some incense. ahhhh so. something IS burning! *breathe.
both my big toes are a nice shade of black and blue after meeting with a solid wood chunk of a chopping block letting gravity take its weight down on me. my first reaction? screaming the word 'fuck'. haha. one of those rare times my mum actually allows me to say that forbidden word with no repercussions. hur. anyway, throughout the screaming, and hopping on my heels, i cried just because i was in so much pain. it wasn't even enough pain to feel shock. this pain beats the twisting of my toe, the latic acid build up in my knees, and having a plank smashed into my head all together.
mum brought me a tub of iced water, and iceing my feet didn't help much with the pain but did make me imagine my feet turning a nice ice blue. heh.
so now, i have two big fat cold swollen blue and black toes. i have no idea how i'm going to walk anywhere, i'm not even going to think about walking to block 53 tomorrow. urgh. save me.
internships. if your company (preferably media-related) is offering internships for 5-6 months from march 2006, please drop a tag with your email. thank you very much. your help is much appreciated. : ) i will gladly go down for interviews and such.
and yes, harry potter is out. so i've heard. so i've heard.
mass comm is draining me. the lack of sleep has never gotten this much out of me. and it's only the third week of school. i know i'll make it. i'm just not sure how. heh.
so let me now, put my head down to rest to wake up tomorrow morning at bloody 7.30 in the morning for my classes, and for the first time in a very
veryvery long time i'll be out before midnight.
random topic for today: someone's sending me flowers tomorrow. i don't know why. i'm thinking it's a prank loaded with skunk scents, but i'll let you know when.
the christmas lightup wasn't a spectacle.
but just because i've got my mum, it was perfect.
weddings, although are of holy matrimony, annoy the shit out of me.i met the guy i wanted to marry today.
it's just too bad he's married already.
thank you julesTHREE NAMES YOU GO BY:1. valerie
2. subtext (once)
3. xiao jie lim
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:1. natasha
2. sandy's mother
3. amy
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:1. toes
2. calves
3. right hand
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:1. ears
2. my hair
3. my damn teeth
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:1. my grandma's canadian
2. my grandpa's canadian
3. i'm chinese
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:1. needles/ injections
2. balloons
3. flying cockroaches/ dead cockroaches/ cat-eating cockroaches
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:1. a book in hand
2. my ez-link card
3. posb card that has cash in the account
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:1. my pink tiered skirt, that i haven't worn in a year
2. brown and green topshop underwear (
i love topshop undies!)
3. white top from bangkok
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:1. switchfoot
2. damien rice
3. gorillaz
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:Right now, it's got to be ...
1. pon de replay - it's just stuck in my head
2. any song from Switchfoot
3. beautiful stranger - madonna (oh shut up. so what if i like the old music. at least i've got
taste.)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:1. hugs
2. good laughs
3. time apart
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):1. i've thought about going lesbian
2. kissing a guy is so much fun, i think.
3. when i was 11, i said i wanted to be a doctor and kill all my male patients.
THREE THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:1. humor
2. nice hugs
3. self-esteem
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:1. reading a book
2. dancing butt naked (hehe. and no, you're not allowed to join me)
3. talking about nothing and laughing anyway
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:1. research (yes, i live my homework)
2. sleep
3. know that i can get into zouk tonight
THREE CAREERS YOU HAVE CONSIDERED:1. radio dj
2. a bigg-ass accounts manager for an advertising company
3. lecturer of the social sciences
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:1. maldives
2. france
3. new york
THREE NAMES YOU LIKE:1. nicole
2. ryan
3. kim
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:1. become famous
2. bungee jump/skydive
3. fall head over heels in love
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:1. i want short hair, ending up looking like a boy
2. i think like one, except i use my brain
3. i could pass off as a boyfriend to a girl
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:1. i have a pussy (
taken from ren, no i did not take ren's pussy. i have one!)
2. i wear girl clothing
3. i like boys
THREE MALE CELEB CRUSHES:1. that guy on lizzie mcguire, her best friend is hot. adam something.
2. that guy on las vegas
3. dermont mulroney
THREE FEMALE CELEB CRUSHES:1. cameron diaz
2. jessica alba
3. liv tyler
and then there were two. mocha's got a new owner - khid.
khid, you better take good care of mocha, if you ever throw him out on the streets, i'll murder you.
take a chance on me by susan donovan: raunchy love that comes when it's most unlikely, the passionate fusion of emotions between two characters, a step daughter and a buttugly dog tells the tale of how people give others second chances when they are full out of them. well written; the story plays out in your head, giving one's imagination a run for its juices. i couldn't put it down til i was done, make it 0330hrs this morning.
i'm juggling more than a couple. i'm juggling what might be their little emotion they have invested into what we could have going. gee.
adel's place on wednesday was nice
clean fun (not counting the number of times we had to hump a teddy bear! the poor thing.)
the i have never sections were good, i drank to never kissing a stranger, stealing and another thing i can't remember. then i had the joker (which was a card-option made up on the spot for me) and it started with how an orgasm would sound like (or something like that), then to describing my fantasy sex date, then we settled oh how hot sex with moses lim would sound like. fyi, if you don't know who is moses lim; he's the father role in a local comedy series several years back called 'under one roof', he's also, i'm guessing, 250 pounds of a man.
so what would hot sex with mr. lim be like? what's there to say? nothing actually, all i did was slap my hands over and over, now that's hot sex. hahahhaa.
heads you live, tales you die
there are 3 kinds of people in the world. the rich. the poor. and all those in between.
i never invested myself into anything, so i would never lose anything.
domino is a hellofagood movie. great cinematography, fantastic script, a*list actors - what else can i say but you have to have to watch it, even on a weekend when the tickets are blasting $9.50!