; brazen and bold

dan: girls are trouble, and guys are trouble seekers.
val: never trouble trouble, until trouble troubles you.
dan: huh?
val: don't bother trouble, until trouble bothers you.
dan: but guys would still be trouble seekers.
val: troubles doesn't need to be sought, it'll be around either way. besides, trouble is the consequence of getting involved with trouble.
dan: and then temptation would be the problem.
val: cause, effect, consequence. make a decision and get out of it.

if guys are trouble seekers, i'm a guy. i think this theory needs to be reworked.

weak soul, weak spirits, and weak flesh. what in the world have we done that's right?

hearing aid: destiny's child // through with love

~~i want to get married.~~

hearing aid: artic monkeys // i bet you look good

so he hasn't forgotten me after all

(: this smile isn't fake.

hearing+visual aids: james blunt // chasing time: the bedlam sessions

james blunt is a brilliant performer with a voice that chills the soul.
"i have forgotten how to love," says blunt in his dvd.

guess what i found on my brother's pc : )

no not porn.

laughing my heart out with a raspy voice.

Q: if you can't trust your best friend, whom can you trust?

i mentioned something to someone lately. what happened next shouldn't be a surprise, but in brief this is what happened after the exchange. my words did the longest roller coaster's loop-the-loop 6,279,103,827 times, rode on the GMAX reverse bungee thirteen times, was spat out from the gut of a cat and ended up in the wrong hands after being flung around by a rabies-infected orang utan.

A: the ones outside of the circle. let them in and they'll surprise you.

thanks just doesn't cut it.

Here's your updates on the NP Idol Quarter-Finals.

English NP Idol semi-finalists are:

Charlene Chen
Calvin Fong
Ridzuan Rashid
Tiffany Kwa
Razif
Pan Caili
Desmond Lau
Matthew Liu
Jasmine Toh
Justin Ang

Chinese NP Idol Semi-finalists are:

Chua Wei Jian
Tan Yu Pin
Dylan Chan
Kwok Zhen Yuan
Tan Han Yang
Andy Sun
Peck Kai Quan
Yeo Shi Mei (the sole lady of the lot)
Johnny Tan
John Foo

Congratulations all Semi-Finalists. I will be seeing you guys at the Semi-Finals on the 7th of July, at the NP Convention Centre. Those interested in supporting your favourite contestant, be sure to pick up tickets at $5 from FMS block 52. Who goes to the next round depends on you!

If you are wondering why I'm posting the results, it's because I'm hosting NP Idol. (so-des-neh). Check back here for other interesting facts about the contestants, nothing scandalous I assure you.

A few weeks ago, I declared a Random Thursday. Here is the follow up to Random Thursday.

Today is 'Random Tuesday' day. - By order of Val.

(I) Seven random facts:
1) I find short(er) guys more attractive. Make them skinny too, and I'll adore them.
2) I would love to dance in the rain everyday, if it's a guarantee that I don't fall sick for the following 3 weeks.
3) My three cats are all neutered.
4) I know how to bake chocolate chip cookies and how to operate the washing machine.
5) I have neither a vibrator nor a dildo - I had to ask a friend once what's a dildo. Now I know..
6) I secretly wish I could fly, and marry Peter Pan and live with the fairy elves and the lost boys in Neverland - and yes, never grow up.
7) I have a compulsion to write all random things that pop into my head on a piece of paper - be it on a receipt even.

(II) Seven celebrity crushes:
1) Jude Law.
2) Ellen Pompei/Patrick Dempsey.
3) Dermont Mulroney.
4) Heath Ledger - not in Brokeback Mountain but in A Knight's Tale.
5) Ewan McGregor.
6) The editor on My Best Friend's Wedding - I had no idea he was gay damnit.
7) Charlize Theron - I want to marry her. hahahaa.

(III) Seven qualities I want in a potential boyfriend:
1) Confident.
2) Quick-witted.
3) Able to laugh at himself, they're charming in that way.
4) Independent - understands when I say that I don't want to see him for the next two months because I'm sick of his face, or I'm too busy to make out with him in the back seat of his car. ;P
5) Has an inclination to good movies and has good taste in movies.
6) Smarter than me would be great, so that we can argue with some common sense. (Have you ever had one of those conversations that is so emotionally charged it's draining? It sucks.)
7) Has manners, never hit a girl, never scream at your mother, and lifts the seat of the throne when taking a piss.
*8) If he can sing, play an instrument, and have all the above traits -- waitasecond. I think I ought to stop kidding myself. If he has 4 out of the above, he's taken.

(IV) Seven things that scare me:
1) Any form of commitment with another living, breathing human being.
2) Balloons; because they have the potential to blow up.
3) Needles, injections - anything that can puncture my skin or has the intention of doing so. (2+3 go very well together and very far away from me.)
4) I'm not afraid of death, I'm afraid that death will take away all my family and friends before it takes me.
5) The thought of someone chasing me in a 40ft high maze.
6) Being a nobody when I grow up, and having fulfilled nothing by the time I'm 35. (This is a double-whammy).
7) Thunder claps so loud you feel almost deaf at the end of it.

(V) Seven things I like/love most:
1) Green grass, and swings made of rubber tyres hung from old oak trees.
2) Dreary days when the thunder is just rumbling at 7a.m., soothing enough to keep you in bed.
3) Laughing so hard that my sides ache - because I'm in great company of friends.
4) Pastries that are so fattening they're heavenly.
5) Knowing that there is always someone on the other side of the line who will pick up your call at 2a.m. in the morning.
6) Sunshines and dimples (couldn't choose between them)
7) Airconditioning on blistering hot days.

(VI) Seven things I plan to do before I die:
1) Dedicate 300 hours to helping children;

The math would be:
I'm now 19, say I've got another minimum of 50 years to go.
300hrs/50years = 6 hours a year (that IS feasible) - anyone care to join me to bring kids to the zoo in September?

2) Visit Venice before it sinks.
3) Find out who murdered John F. Kennedy.

People have been speculating that it was a conspiracy. I'm not going to agree nor disagree. All I'm thinking is how long they're gonna take before they put this behind them.

4) Attempt to save an endangered species (saving them would be even better)
5) Hold a gathering of the greatest minds
6) Meet Rain (does his name have an 'e'?) - yes that Korean guy.

I saw him on MTV, and he's got a mightymightyMIGHTY-make-girls-sighhh-kinda
smile. (it don't matter if he's passe at the age of 40, but you can never lose a
smile like that!)

7) Open a talent management agency

(VII) Seven random songs at the moment:
1) Do You Want To (Franz Ferdinand)
2) Wherever You Will Go (The Calling)
3) Johhny Be Good
4) Mr. Sandman
5) Gravity (My Lady Peace)
6) Rock DJ (Robbie Williams)
7) Paris Hilton's single. (saw it on MTV last night)

do you like me?
i don't know.

ahh eff this.

a 'no' is a form of confirmation - not a positive one - but a confirmation nonetheless. i loathe uncertainty.

you know how jigsaw puzzle pieces fit together?
yeah, so?
it's something like that, everything fits together nicely, perfectly, comfortably.
tell him to fuck off.

hearing aid: all things indie at club home

i stood within 3 metres of fra*land today. no shit.

for those who don't know, fra*land is a place i haven't been to for about coming 2 years now. it's been so long, i thought i'll never come across it ever again. you know how they speak of a treasure kept so secret that you can never find at the same place twice? fra*land is kind of like that to me - the secret treasure hidden so well and out of sight that it is so rare an opportunity that you get to lay your eyes upon it.

i don't know if i was fortunate to see fra*land, because i freaked - beyond freaked. i stopped dancing and stood absolutely still in the middle of the dancefloor, gawking in shock, disbelief, stupor and all other synonyms that you can find in thesaurus.com when you google the word 'shock'. look it up, i'm pretty sure i was feeling every single one of them at that moment in time.

i dreamt this day so many times, but it was nothing like my dream at all. in my made-up world; he was happy, i was happy and happy to see him happy (and always with some other girl).
pinch me and what we get is a jaw-dropped-valerie staring at this guy who looks like, walks like, dances like, and acts like faisal. he gained a little weight, but still just as hot since 2 years ago. shit. i hate my luck.

i would be the sky if you would always be the stars that light the skies; that dot the heavens; that scatter the horizons.

HA. right, like anyone would say that in the REAL WORLD.

but it sure sounds nice. : )

a strange night more than any other, i had a great day yesterday. :)

the exhibition is taking shape, though we have skrewups here and there, it's taking shape and that's more than enough for me right now. : )

it was a great day because i met the printer, who's really professional, surprisingly professional. his name is boon wei, and he's located in BEDOK NORTH. well worth the travelling. i later met one possible advertising client, who's made me very very VERY happy. and another who wasn't in. i chatted up another company, and they're interested too - food reveiws!! fooood.

i caught a movie, finally - after how many weeks of lifeless slogging over the laptop and computer and gmail and trimedia. THE OMEN.

let's digress a little: THE OMEN, 2hrs.

in brief: acting is believable, chemistry between the characters is neglible, and script is expected (it's word-for-word from the original decades old script!) timeline-wise, they got the dates rather skrewed up, but you've gotta watch it first.
still, it's not out-of-this-world freaky, but if you like short and sudden scares, this would be a movie for you.

note: after this movie, you might never want to adopt anything - ever.

now, back to what happened after our 9p.m. movie, make that 11.30pm
i receive a message, from a friend in secondary school. it's been a while, "do you still remember me?" so i'm taken on tuesday night, so no one book me : )

it gets stranger and stranger would be right, because i met some guy called wen. then i was offered a ride home by a total stranger, who said that he saw me waiting for a bus. (i didn't take the free ride home, it's dangerous you know! besides i was 200m from my house)

i fall asleep on my couch, in my grey dress, to wake at 8.30a.m. (what an ungodly hour for a saturday when i have no work to do). the first thing i do? get started on gmail - what is wrong with me?! you may ask?. i left my laptop in school (don't ask me why, i figured to stay away from work - but to no avail you see.)

and i'm glad i didn't stay away, because i clinched a deal with Skratch-Entertainment this morning to have UrbanWire / TriMedia Publishing to be the official online media sponsor for the 1st Fort Minor Asia DJ Championship battle 2006!

ohyeahohyeahohyeahohyeahohyeahohyeahyeahyeahyeahyeah

Fort Minor Asia DJ Championships are open to contestants of all ages (if you are below 16, please bring your parents)

One of Asia's most prestigous DJ battle ever to take place on the friendly shores of Singapore, contestants as far away from Taiwan would be travelling down to Singapore to slice & dice their way into claiming the sole bragging rites as the Fort Minor Asia DJ Champion 2006.

DJs stand to win attractive prizes such as a limited edition and personally-autographed Pioneer 707 Skratch DJ Mixer worth $1200 and other other premium merchandise.

i am no stranger to the magic
i've felt it a hundred times over
but no one compares to the vibes you give me

i met a guy today, all i know
his name is wen, i would've stayed
to chat that is, if my last bus didn't come

take a risk, stay silly stay
tell him hi, and don't say goodbye
the whole of me screamed, as i stood to board the bus

i call a friend, do me a favour please
go find him and tell him my name
give him my number, and tell him, call me

he's gone my dear, he's not there
let fate bring you two together. someday
yes, someday.

i'm no stranger to the magic
but i'm drawn to having circles drawn
around him

i would take a cab back
but no, let fate bring us back together.

i've installed a little lamp in my awfully messy room. it's beautiful.
which reminds me:

"i'm still packing.. lots more to go," says my guy friend.
"well, i'm pretty sure it ain't much because you're a neat/organised freak."
"yeah, there's only my speakers and sneakers left actually."
"haha.. you'll hate my room. it's not a pigsty or anything. it's just a lot of things not in its right place." [if you're looking for supporting evidence/eye witness reports, ask my mum/brothers/sandee/sarah and all those who have seen my room...]
"i won't not like your room - trust me : )"

damn :) damn :( damn :) damn :( damn.

it's a new week, it's a new day; and i'm ready to take it on
whatever comes my way, this event's gonna go down big.

wish me luck! the exhibition is in 9 days.

never fall for someone whom you like more than they do you.

you know what happens when you don't listen? you're setting yourself up for biggest broken heart of the century, and crying sessions enough to hydrate the deserts of north africa, western australia and saudi arabia.

hearing aid //mem// too much to forgive

it takes courage to say hello to someone you don't know.
it takes even more courage to say hello to someone you do.

take a listen to MEM's a peek at heaven through square binoculars at www.purevolume.com/mem

he's coming back.

jengjeng. - sandee (hahah.)

all the smartassed people will tell you that you can never avoid the problem, it will always come back to you. like a yo-yo.

he's like a yo-yo. damnit.

what we fear can only make us stronger.
what we detest can only annoy us.