this has officially been the worst day of my life. without a doubt.

i guess i could kinda see it coming. and i've never been eaten away so much before. to have all my secrets out on the table for the most important person in my life to see - my mum.

blow no. 1: no one is allowed to my house anymore. not even you, t. sorry.
blow no. 2: my allowance has been cut - i need a job. now.
blow no. 3: now that it's out, my mum didn't flinch. i hate you for that. you're my mum, what kinda mum are you? to think.
blow no. 4: this will live with me. for life. someone erase me.

bite me. eat me.
don't just taste me
take me away
i'm hurting.
save me.

i have learnt to use a switch in my life. on and off. i can control it.
i am still living. i still have faith. i am val.


anyway, azli read me last night. said i have 3 routes in front of me, all asking me to take theirs.
1. ah beng
2. bad tempered man
3. someone: nerdish/slightly buff? (he said i've met him already. who?!)
he said i stand there, in front of these 3 routes, but i don't move forward; i'm walking back. hmm.. interesting. we shall see. step off, back away, move.

i'm still here.

ttfn, this is hurting me. out.
(time to switch)

this blog was relevant to a ms. valerie anne from when she was studying mass communications in a singapore polytechnic.

she was aged 16 on her first post, and 18 on her last.

she is currently a freelance emcee-er/hostess.
contact her at
valerieanne @ cheerful.com

some might call me the ultimate sagittarian; free-spirited and whatnot, but i don't believe in horoscopes.

"everything gets complicated when you think. i don't discourage thinking, it's over thinking that i'm worried about." - val


none existent.


i've moved on.

shop alot?


. make Valerie Anne are big name
. publish a book entitled "you better quote val, or else" - recommended by derek goh
. open a clip-on earrings shop
. open a cafe
. learn/speak spanish
. skydive over mauritius waters
. bungee jump from a suspension bridge
. get back into my dancing shoes
. set a world record for the longest time on a roller coaster ride
. save an endangered species
. AND prove to my mum that i'll be married before 35. HAHA.


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