i was walking up my slope today, and everytime i do, i wonder who i would want to walk this slope with. went through this whole list of people, girls included. haha.. : ) nah, don't worry, i'm still going straight.
anyway, back to topic. the only one who i wished with all my heart to walk me home is him - mr. october. i feel so much like a fool for wishing and hoping so hard.
and what luck, for me to stumble across his blog. and cry like an idiot. and hope again.
someone remove me.



i need to stop wishing on things that won't happen. it's bad for my health.
i need to make issey stop smoking. that's bad for my health too.
i need to remove myself from happy people cos faking smiles isn't working out anymore.
i need to be by myself.
i need God to send me an angel. please God? the best kind you have for someone like me.
and i still need to stop wishing.
i need to see him happy. happy with someone else.
i need to love to come back.
i need love. fullstop.





pain never felt this bad.
make it last, then maybe i'll just go numb.


or pop me an antidepressant? wonder whether that works. i'll try it, and i'll tell you.


too bad i couldn't send allen off. yes, he's single too. he would be missed. and yes, i will have to travel to sydney to see him once in my lifetime.


ttfn, this is me. out.

this blog was relevant to a ms. valerie anne from when she was studying mass communications in a singapore polytechnic.

she was aged 16 on her first post, and 18 on her last.

she is currently a freelance emcee-er/hostess.
contact her at
valerieanne @ cheerful.com

some might call me the ultimate sagittarian; free-spirited and whatnot, but i don't believe in horoscopes.

"everything gets complicated when you think. i don't discourage thinking, it's over thinking that i'm worried about." - val


none existent.


i've moved on.

shop alot?


. make Valerie Anne are big name
. publish a book entitled "you better quote val, or else" - recommended by derek goh
. open a clip-on earrings shop
. open a cafe
. learn/speak spanish
. skydive over mauritius waters
. bungee jump from a suspension bridge
. get back into my dancing shoes
. set a world record for the longest time on a roller coaster ride
. save an endangered species
. AND prove to my mum that i'll be married before 35. HAHA.


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