Saturday, April 16, 2005
let me tell you a story.
once upon a time, there was this girl and she was in love
and it was a love's that good and reciprocated
"she had been good for him, and she had kept his head together when he'd lost himself. her love had steadied him; that candied love, which he had so often ducked, had given him purpose when he had no other. if he were to lose it now, and her with it, he wasn't sure he'd get through it.
but how, oh believe me, how difficult it was if it was going to work. and so they decided on the ultimate.
"how easily he rejected that love. he didn't need it, of course, as she needed his, and even asked to be released from its constraints. she would oblige. she would ease up, lay off, make no further claims to his affection, and even though it saddened her that she had no right to demand his love, she would not be overwhelmed. for if she should lose him now in spite of his promises, if he should vanish from her life as he was free to do, then she would always have this exceptional day to look back on.
they talked about things and such. it was a conversation to remember.
'i like you enough to give you hugs.
i like you enough to take slow walks with you.
i like you enough to bring you into my life.
but i won't.'
'this is like when you have a car, the license and everything you need.
but you can only drive it to the end of the road. that's that.'
"if that day ever comes."
"course it will. it'll all go fine as long as you don't lose your head."
"and if i do?"
i'll find it for you.and then...
"she caught his eye, and at that moment the tie that bound them slackened its hold and left them free to slip apart.
'he could see her. he could see her standing on a beach, at dawn or dusk, facing the sea, contemplating the ocean. her feet were bare and her heart was breaking; and he was too far away to do anything about it.
the end.
brilliant story right? it has been inspired by a book i borrowed from the library the catalpa tree by denyse devlin (of course with a 'lil edit from me.)
"making it fit"'s the term.
today, dee and i were talking about how a guy for me would solve my problems.
how about a shadow?
he'll only leaves me on rainy days, we'll say he's serving ns then. *grin*
did an audition today for a movie called "tough choices" by a christian production house goodnews productions. preety neat. : ) hoping to get the job, with dee yes? and pearl too! what a treat.
keep me busy, keep me out of my mind. surely it'll work me to the ground, but it'll work.
a trait much needed: a smile that could light up black hole. : ) yes, that's it.
but of course, it's like this: throwing your voice into a cave in hopes that it would echo forever (why not? i'm sure it's slightly possible. slightly?)
'feck.'
ttfn, this is me. out.