goodbye.









pardon me. i was bored. and it's 4 in the morning of a public holiday.
selamat hari raya to all my muslim friends!

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

next.

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

ask me what i want to do in the future AFTER christmas, maybe i'll have an inkling then. next.

Your Dominant Intelligence is Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence

You are naturally athletic and coordinated, good at making your mind and body work together. Sports are fun and easy for you, especially those requiring good hand - eye coordination. There's also a good chance you're a great dancer, or good at expressing yourself through body language. You learn best by doing, and you feel like you've always got to be moving (even if it's just your hands). You would make a good athlete, physical education teaches, dancer, actor, firefighter, or artisan.

next.

Your Monster Profile

Basilisk Dictator You Feast On: Starbucks You Lurk Around In: The Ocean You Especially Like to Torment: Your Exes

next. what kind of crappy christmas present i am:

You Are Socks!

Cozy and warm... but easily lost. You make a good puppet.

next.

You Are 60% Pure

Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close. But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet.

i'm not sharing anything anytime soon. next.

You Are 50% Impulsive

You're quite impulsive, but you never are reckless. You qualify as a very spontaneous person, but you still know how to honor your commitments. And while responsibility doesn't come easy to you, having fun does!

next.

Your Love Style is Storge

For you, love and friendship are almost the same thing And your love tends to be the enduring, long lasting kind (You've been known to still have connections with exes) But sometimes your love is not the most passionate Leap before you look, and you'll find that fire you crave

yesyes, i have heard plenty of complaints that my love for my lover is almost negligent. he complained that i might as well have loved my friends more. next.

Your Love Element Is Metal

In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash. Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other

more frivolous information that i enjoy reading. next.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 46% Pure

You're not one to kiss and tell... But word is, you kiss pretty well.

WAHAHAA. so there. i kiss pretty well. no, fubar, i don't give classes. HAHAA. next.

You Belong in Paris

You enjoy all that life has to offer, and you can appreciate the fine tastes and sites of Paris. You're the perfect person to wander the streets of Paris aimlessly, enjoying architecture and a crepe.

i would like to visit it someday. it is in my list of to-visits while on my backpacking trip through europe when i turn 21. next.

You Are a Learning Cook

You've got the makings of an excellent cook, and the desire to be one. But right now, you're just lacking the experience. You couldn't be a top chef yet, but you could be an apprentice.

my momma says that i gotta know how to cook, so that my future mother-in-law can't complain. momma says, "i'm adding value, val. you can thank me when you're married." (if you get married, she still stands by - 'keep at what you're doing and you're gonna be single at 35.') next.

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge. In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead! And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in. Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

next.

Your New Year's Resolutions

1) Get a pet rock 2) Eat less onions 3) Travel to New Zealand 4) Study japanese pop culture 5) Get in shape with street fighting

of course, get a pet rock. how could i not? :)

and here's one, specially for fubar... the test of evilness.

You Are 34% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

i am the most dangerous kind of evil. okay, blogthings might say i'm evil, but it's an unreliable source that is basing all my 34% evilness on 50 questions. i am requesting for a recount.









i'm thinking of shutting down this blog. i'll sit on it.









an angel fell into my arms the other day, and i looked at it thinking, 'what the hell is this?'
the angel stood up, tall above me, and said, 'thank you. thank you for catching me.'
'no big.'
'let me help you,' the angel continued to speak, but i tuned out.
then the angel reached out, 'i thought you might need a hand with this.' it reached out to touch my chest, only then i realised it meant to touch my heart.
i stepped back to get an even measure of this creature with white wings; the angel. it was not goodlooking nor hideous, but it was certainly beautiful.
'i don't need your help,' i pushed its hand away.
'He thinks you do.'
'you can tell him i don't.' i turn to walk away.
the angel walks beside me just as the rain begins to pour. then it whips out an umbrella, no, it's white wings, over my head.
'funny, so it has other purposes.' i laugh.
'everything has a purpose,' the angel didn't laugh. 'if only people would take the time to realise what it is.'
'so what you're saying is that everything that happens to us is for a reason?'
'no, yes, maybe. i should ask Him when i see Him.'
'so what is your purpose in meeting me, and sheltering me with your wings from the rain? telling me that i need help?' i raise my voice. 'really, what is your purpose?'
'my purpose is to be with me. to help you with this.' it points to my chest again, no, my heart.
'i'm fine. you're fine. i'm fine.' i pick up my pace. the angel follows. 'would you stop following me?' i yell.
'i don't follow you, i follow what needs fixing.'
'i don't need fixing.'
'you don't. but your heart does.'
'it'll fix itself.'
'yes it will. not perfectly, but it will.'
'so.'
'so.'
'so stop following me.'
'i don't follow you, i follow what needs fixing.'
'fine. i want to be fixed. is that what you want to hear? i want to be fixed, but not right now ok?'
'i understand,' said the angel, as it stood with its wings above my head, waiting.


you can't choose the time you want to be made better, and you definitely can't choose the times when to be broken. but you can choose to be the angel to shelter those who are broken. and believe me, the world needs more angels.









'throw me a line.'
'oh. okay. you've got a big nose.'
'big meh? big is good what. but also, my nose not so big leh. it's not as big as my palm.'
'is it?' i ask.
he brings his hand up to his face, comparing his nose and palm.
i couldn't resist it, really. -- i smashed his hand against his face.

HAHAHAHA. i'm sorry mr. chocolate addict!









hearing aid: the fray // how to save a life


don't you know that war is ravaging our world while we sit in our sofas eating potato chips? industries are damaging our environment while we catch movies in the cinemas. people are inflicting pain and suffering on others while we window shop along orchard road. sometimes, i am amazed by how indifferent people are to what is going on around them -- and i know i'm one of them indifferent people. i am part of this society.

we can talk about non conformity, but to be like others/ to want to be accepted by others/ to do things to be accepted, makes us conformers. and who doesn't want to be accepted? people, humans, us -- we want to be part of something. to belong.


are you happy with the way you live? don't you want to be a better person? i know i do.









i don't want to be crushing on a stranger.
-- we like people because of what we make them up to be. they have imaginary good traits. and who doesn't like good traits?


he sleeps at 10pm. sheesh. who in the world sleeps at 10pm?! he does.

i want to sleep at 10pm.


monday was the first day of school. i like school. wait another 2 weeks then ask me again.









unlike most sundays of the holidays, i spent the last one with my mum -- travelling the island, eating, and buying the most adorable bras from pierre cardin! : ) waHahaha.. i HAD to say it! really, i love 'em bras. (and no, i'm not gonna show you or anyone else who's not female). *grin.

so.

life's looking up. and school's starting tomorrow. finally.









hearing aid: breaking benjamins & the academy is


i had a good day today.

and a good day is a good thing. : )


j'ai rencontre lui aujourd'hui pour cocoa chaud, et a ri beaucoup. que tient nous ensemble est un film avec une boisson de son choix, et ses nachos avec le fromage supplementaire.









it's 6ish on a not so random friday. i went to mos tonight, and i'm glad that i did.

if you didn't know, i just got out of an unsuccessful relationship with a friend of mine. so i've been having the worst week of 2006, and my eyes are puffy from all the unloading of tears. it's terrible; i'm hideous really. ugh.

i should've listened to my own advice, 'never fall for someone who doesn't love you as much as you do them.' crazy woman, talk so much..


ANYWAY, clubbing was awesome. it wasn't all that great at first though.

reason no. 1 why mos wasn't so great at the beginning:
the queue into mos was crazy mad, curling round the building. and i shuffled through the queue by myself.

reason no. 2 why mos wasn't so great at the beginning:
two black (not malay/indian, i think south african) guys approached me within 5 minutes i reached mos dance floor. one asked to dance with me, i obliged considering i had no plans for the night except to enjoy myself and get happy.

they started to get touchy.

reason no.3 why mos wasn't so great at the beginning:
trying to save myself from the two black guys, i started dancing with a malay guy who smiled at me once in a while.

he started getting touchy.

reason no. 4 why mos wasn't so great at the beginning:
the two black guys pulled me away from the malay guy.


reason no.1 why mos was getting good:
i saw kian and mik. i had no idea that they were in the same group of girls who were dancing right next to me. i mouthed, 'save me' to the guys. they helped me escape from the touchy men.

reason no. 2 why mos was good:
i circulated the dance floor looking for my friends. and in the midst of it, i crossed paths with someone i don't know. we didn't exchange words, only smiles. it's the story of boy and girl meet. boy and girl smile. but boy and girl never meet again.

why am i happy? because we both took double takes at each other as we turned to walk away, and we caught each other looking back and smiled again. priceless.

i don't know who he is, nor do i know his name. i only know his eyes, and his smile. and that's good enough for me. : )

reason no. 3 why mos was great:
i met zhuping! zhubs was from my secondary school, and he and i were close then. i haven't seen him since graduation!

reason no. 4 why mos was great:
i made a new friend. :D


'hey you've got my phone right?' i ask.
'shhhh. i'm trying to steal your phone, you're not helping.'
'ok, keep the phone, but give me your number.'
'i'm not that easy okay.' he grins at me.
'hahaa. how much would it cost then?' playing along with him.
he whips out one hand, and starts counting till 5, '50 bucks.'
'you're not worth that much.'
he chokes on water, laughing.

he returns me my phone without his number, then reaches over and calls himself. : )









hearing aid: twelve stones // the way i feel


truth: nothing surprises me anymore, and it's almost as if i expect to be hurt.


every night i look forward to seeing the sunrise, then i'll sleep knowing that i'll wake up to see the sun again. i know it's stupid to sleep so late (6ish7am); why not sleep at midnight, and wake at 8 right? but don't argue here -- this is my time.

taking one day at a time, i know i'll feel better. today's i'm feeling fine. tomorrow, i'll feel better than fine. : )

to all my friends who sent their love, thanks. i love you too.









i was at my bus stop on my way to town when i took out xing's neeon mp3 player, deciding when and how to return it. i fussed about so many other things at the same time -- let's just say me and my attempt at multi-tasking is the shits. the bus came. and as i stood up, the mp3 rolled off my lap and onto the road, in front of the oncoming bus.

shit, what am i going to do, i thought to myself. i can't very well fling myself in front of the bus, it's barely 20 metres away, and it's not exactly slowing down. shit shit shit. okay, pray really hard that the bus doesn't roll over it. pray really really hard now val.

i crossed my fingers, and hoped to die. just then, things started moving in slow motion, and i could see the bus roll into the bay and over the mp3 player. i thought, maybe it might survive the weight. maybe creative did a fantastic job, and then i can write to the company and commend their works. i dreamed, i really did.

i stood there, open jawed and reeling from the fact that i told xing that i was going to return the mp3 to him. i picked up the smashed mp3, looked at it and thought aloud, fuck. i could hear gasps from the others at the bus stop. i think i could hear them imagining piggy banks being broken by little hammers. i could hear my piggy bank being broken by a huge hammer, backed by the screamings of my mum, and joined by the sing song of angels in heaven waiting for me.

i picked up the mp3 player, and gawked at it for another 3 seconds before rushing to board the bus. in all 5 strides to the entrance of the bus, i thought i'm gonna buy this from xing for two hundred bucks, and i can't tell him why.

(pls. note: if you know xing, don't tell him. and xing if you're reading this, it's a story that you don't have to come talk to me about.)

the lady who boarded the bus before me saw the incident, and i could feel her heart break for me as i walked past her on the bus. her eyes bore into my back. if i had to describe my emotions at that very point in time, it would be - A. shock - B. shock - C. shock.

i wanted to strangle the bus driver. but i knew, first i had to tell xing that i'm buying the mp3 from him. still reeling from shock, i dialed his number from memory, and waited for his curt 'yes?'.
'erm. hi...' i stammered, most unsure of myself. i was going to blow 200 bucks on something that was literally crap. 'hi. sorry to bother you.'
'yeah.'
'i'm gonna buy your mp3 from you.'
'huh?' i would like to think he was shocked. 'i thought you weren't going to?'
'well, now i am.'
'why?'
'because i want to.' it was the truth, i wanted to buy it off him; how could i possibly return a smashed gadget, or smashed anything? and he knows when i'm lying.
'ok, so now i don't need to return you your $75. you pay me $125.' he owed me $75 for a shirt i bought him. ask me to buy you a shirt, and i'll personally throw you out the window of a 20-storeys up.
'right. just send me your dbs account and i'll wire the cash later.'
'i use uob.'
'right. send it anyway.' i wasn't thinking at this point in time, i just blew two hundred on a gadget that doesn't work, it's NOTHING. i cannot emphasise NOTHING more than this.
'ok.'
'ok.' he hung up.
i closed my phone, and wiped away tears that were rolling down my face. i cried in public again, and on a damn bus, and i couldn't care less. this is the most expensive ride i've ever taken in my entire life. $201.80.

xing came around in the evening, and i passed him the $125.

so, i'm $125 short, and with a piece of crap that has absolutely no purpose other than to remind me of the past 5 months.

my options are:
A. keep it and frame it.
B. throw it back in his face, and tell him to keep the money.

(here's a reminder again: if you know xing, don't tell him. and xing if you're reading this, it's a story that you don't have to come talk to me about.)









1. My ex is still...
my good friend, someone i trust.

2. I am listening to...
the mad hash of newspapers being thrown about.

3. Maybe I should...
watch what I eat more.

4. I love...
watching my friend writh and squirm while i eat durian anything.

5. My best friend...
is Rah, Dee and T.

6. I don't understand...
why everything has to be so complicated. even washing your hair -- do you really need to know the steps to washing your hair? step 1. wash // step 2. lather // step 3. rinse // step 4. repeat.

7. I lost...
my sense of the world love. not to forget, my wallet over 2 dozen times when i was in primary school.

8. People say...
it would be terribly difficult for me to find a boyfriend who wouldn't mind my lifestyle. i have no comments.

9. The meaning of my screen name is...
vfrizlea. V + frizle + A.

10. Love is...
knowing i still have you when you have the world.

and an extra for you
love feels like:
playing in the rain, and jumping into puddles of water

11. Somewhere, someone is...
doing their business in the crack of the world.

12. I will always...
want to fly off to some country and have a love affair with a stranger.

13. Forever seems...
to be the word that foolish people use. Dont' be daft, I won't use forever, even in my wedding vows. I'll say, "I will cherish you for as long as I have you."

14. I never ever want to...
drown. I almost drowned once, and in that second that you think you could die, time freezes.

15. My cell phone is...
a lousy piece of crapass-shit. as and when it feels like it, it crashes -- taking along with it my 300 over contacts.

16. When I woke up this morning...
i didn't want to go for my lunch date.

17. I get annoyed...
when decisions can't be made.

18. Parties are...
awesome when with the right company.

19. My pet(s) are...
my 3 cats. benji, oreo and captain.

bong said: "i want oreo."
xing said: "i want captain and i'll leave her at your (bong's) place"
bong said: "huh!?"

20. Kisses are the best when...
served with hugs.

21. Today I...
cancelled my lunch date.

22. Tomorrow I will...
fall back into routine, and meet with the boys.

23. I really want...
to hate him, so i can say i don't love him.

7 random things about myself:
1. My TMTC name is Natania Castelle.
2. When I play the piano, I get drowsy.
3. Cheeriness is a self defense mechanism that I have almost mastered.
4. My ring finger is longer than my index finger.
5. I don't like vodka, or baileys, or alcohol for that matter.
6. I'm really lousy at painting nails, or keeping them chip-free.
7. I have 35" hips, and am a UK size 10.

7 things that scare me:
1. Clowns.
2. Zombies.
3. Needles, injections.
4. Balloons.
5. Finding out that the world accepts war.
6. Those jump-out-at-you kind of movies
7. Falling in love, and not knowing what it is that is making me all bothered.

7 random songs at the moment:
1. Avenged Sevenfold - Bat Country
2. Rooster - Deep and Meaningless
3. Fuel - Bad Day
4. Bush - Glycerine
5. 9 Days - If I Am
6. Bardot - Poison
7. The Bangles - Manic Monday

7 things I like most:
1. TMTC
2. my best friends
3. reading/shopping for books
4. hearing xing play the piano
5. taking a drive out to nowhere
6. listening to karyn tell stories
7. playing in the rain, jumping in puddles of water.









Q: Is there such a thing as being too late?

i've asked this question before. and everyone, except my friend's younger brother (a sec 1 boy), said yes.

let me digress a little. this is how the phone conversation went.
i called my friend's mobile.
someone picked up.
'is there such a thing as being too late', i shoot.
'huh? erm, this is kenneth, terence is busy at the moment.'

kenneth -- terence's younger brother. adorable, sweet, and charming. wait til he's 21, then i am at liberty to emphasise and elaborate more on how adorable, sweet and charming he is. he IS a minor you know.

'sorry.' i mumble, slightly embarrassed. 'is terence busy?'
'not really. hold on.' he returns, 'he said he'll call you back.'
'ok. wait. is there such a thing as being too late?' i ask.
'ahhhhh. no?' i laughed to myself. he almost convinced me it could've been true.

he's so adorable la.

hahaa. maybe i should talk to kenneth again, he makes me happy. anyway, i asked it the last time because i told the guy i like him too late and he found someone else. it sucked. big time.

this time around, i'm asking because there's a saying:


A: Yes.












OMG! one of the 5 print ads for asiaone i did is OUT NOW! flip to today's The Straits Times, pg 24.

keep a look out for the tv commercials too. OMG.










here's my latest timetable.

and no, i'm not up for trading any of my mods. sorry. but if want me to help you holler at others for changes, tag me - anytime. i'll keep a look out. : )









JewelFest 2006 is looking for part timers!
$5/hr, from 16-22nd October. Flexi hours.

I know the pay is kinda crapp (ok, really crapp), BUT if you get a few friends to do this with you, it'll be fun! I'm working too, so if you're interested, drop a tag or email me at valerieanne@cheerful.com with your name and contact number.

I will be submitting your contacts to Maureen from LizardStorm; who will contact you for further details.



















my timetable


Not too bad. But Tuesdays really blow, cos I have Acting for 4 hours, then an hour of AD Radio Production -- then a damned 3 hour break -- before ONE hour of Documentary Production.

gee, look at that! i've got classes at 9,10,8,9 AM! and if my monday's are from 8 to 12.. sheesh. heck, i've got to wake up early from now on. looks like no more late nights out anymore! :( oh bugg. *back to reality, whoop there goes gravity*

FYI: I'm in T301 for final sem. If you are in 301, drop a line or tag me. : )
Acting - T311
Radio Pro - P315
Doc Pro - P319









i got the jewelfest 2006 job!

this is really exciting.
this is really really exciting.
this is really really really exciting.
this is almost out of this world exciting.

what is jewelfest? it is a gathering of the world's most exquisite jewellry, top couture brands, one of a kind jewellry designs from the 16th to 22nd of October at Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza (takashimaya, if you please).

what am i going to do there? i'm gonna be the master of ceremony (emcee). weeee!

how did i get the job? they made an open request, word travelled and someone highly recommended i try for it. i did. and i'm glad i did. here's how it went down.
i walked into the office, read a passage with NAMES from philippines, hong kong, america, italy and switzerland (and you know how hard their names are to pronounce..). they returned with the schedule and immediately worked out terms of payment.

yay! it could possibly be because i'm not as expensive as the major players in the industry - but heck that for now. i'm as happy as a clam.


*val is on a natural high, jumping on sofas, beds and bouncing off walls.
don't stop her now; for all you know, this energy could power 3 states in the US. : )









as i was deleting messages in my full inbox in my handphone, i realised that the latest guy i've been seeing has been with me for the longest time ever - 4+ months. do applaud him please, for tolerating me and my nonsense for that long.

it's really too bad that it didn't work out : )

keeping score
average dating period: 1 month.
longest dating period: 4+ months.
shortest dating period: less than one week.









it's post-clubbing from zouk.

nothing crazy really happened. i had a good hair day, a pimple on my nose, killer shoes and got to meet up with old acquaintences, including the guy whose name i almost forgot but thankfully didn't. yay.

rah has coined a new term for people who just can't dance, and should stay off the dancefloor -- polar bears with inflamed legs. now bask in the knowledge : )

'meet you soon, i hope...'

note to self: people change right?









at this cafe i visited, i picked up a book that has quotes for every day of the year. it is meant as advice for those born on those days.











hearing aid: rooster // deep and meaningless

'it's the hardest to tell someone you love them knowing you have to let them go.'













today's ST horoscope says:

Sagittarius

"there's a time to stand and fight, and that time is now. this endless cylce of push-me-pull-you was fine for a while, but now you need a resolution - and fast. state your demands and take action."

i don't believe in horoscopes, but it does leave a ring that won't stop buzzing in my head.









Q: is lychee martini the drink to buy for girls?

was begged to go down to acid bar last night, and i went because she convinced me that i needed to get out. maybe she was wrong, because i ended being a rather pitiful sight -- let's save that story for another day ( :

so we took our seats in an inconspicuous corner of the bar. the waitress came and handed over the menus. honestly, i wasn't up for anything that couldn't wash down sorrow.

shortly after, another waitress came by our tables and set 2 glasses of lychee martini's on our table.

i'm sorry, we didn't order these. i pointed out.
someone bought them for you.
oh? i looked over at my girl friend. she looked just as confused.
who? she asked.
erm.. a guy.. i'm not sure really.
it's alright, i was about to order a lychee martini! pipes my girl friend.
we thanked the waitress, and she scooted off quickly.

i figured, i'll enjoy the martini - and if it doesn't go well with the mood, i'll order up a beer. we decided that it was possibly her friend who was up on stage playing his originals, one entitled 'ashes', who bought the lychee martinis for us.


later the waitress returned and passed me a stranger's namecard and with a handwritten note at the back:
"thanks for brightening up the joint. hope you liked the drinks."

- J, (9xxx xxxx) <-- yes he left me his handphone number. hahaaa. of course,i messaged him to thank him for the drinks. here's how the world gets smaller; he's really close friends with one of my girl friends.

'why did you buy us lychee martinis?'
'thought you might like it.'

A: i guess lychee martini's are great too. but for me, an iced milo would win hands down anyday.









separation anxiety by karen brichoux
'how do you break up when you're just friends?'


'let's talk.'
'we don't talk.'
'i know.'
you're stuck at the hips to each other. you can read other other; there is no point in talking. so what's next between friends? a scapel perhaps?
i want away from you.

what i loved most about this book was the fact that the characters are real, and you can see them at any corner of the street. delightful really. if you're in need of knowing when to let go, and when to hold on, read this.


val's score: 7.5 /10
buyability factor: borrow it from your friend who owns it.









it's post-filming period now. and i love this period, just because. : )


i've gone and come back from bintan, refreshed and energised myself, gotten away from the whole what's-in-singapore business, spent hours in a hammock doing nothing much except consuming air, lived by the beach, ate food that i've never seen before, come back to what's-in-singapore business, did 2 full days of filming and photography (8am - veryvery late), handled worms, killed some, wore winter wear in blistering singapore, curled/teased/ straightened/pulled/damaged my hair, wore shoes 2 sizes too small for at least 6 hours, crossed my eyes over 50 times, wore a pink-coloured corset, completed 5 tvcs and 5 print ads (slated to be released end this month), closed another chapter of my love life, AND finished reading separation anxiety by karen brichoux.


i think it's been a rather fulfilling week, don't you?









i was wondering to myself what in the world could people be afraid of, and so i googled for 'types of phobia'. here's the link to an alphabetised list of phobias --- PHOBIA MANIA!

looky what i found!
Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
i won't call what i have a phobia... but i ABSOLUTELY do not wish to be around needles or anything that has an intention of puncturing my skin. : )

and others...
Anablephobia - Fear of looking up.
Anglophobia - Fear of England, English culture, ect.
Anuptaphobia - Fear of staying single.
Arachibutyrophobia - Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Astrophobia - Fear of stars and celestial space.
Asymmetriphobia - Fear of asymmetrical things.
Aurophobia - Fear of gold.
Automysophobia - Fear of being dirty.


this is only A. i think i've just found how i'm going to spend my holidays.









i went on a shopping spree yesterday.

major shopping spree.

i would love show you what i've bought, but i don't have a digi-cam or any pictures of them. maybe i will upload some in time (you'll just have to stick around to find out). heh. OR, just chill out with me more now that it's my holidays, and i'll try my best to get dressed in my gorgeous new clothes for you.

as do all battle wars go, you have to have a contingency plan. yes, i plan my shopping trips. sue me. *grin. my plans were to start from lido thereabout and walk my way to orchard point (that's past centrepoint/robinson's btw).

here's how it should've gone.
wheelock place --> wisma atria --> takashimaya --> espirit --> heeren --> emereld point --> centrepoint --> orchard point --> (and maybe) plaza singapura.

i didn't get very far.

i went to zara, topshop, aldo (for shoes), espirit, mango, isetan, dkny, americaya, charles&keith (for shoes), arithalia, gg<5, phuture london, forever 21, guess, and ended off with zara again.

i only 'explored' a little bit of takashimaya before having to end my spree because the shops were closing. hahaa. i have to say that the shoe shops were a bit of a disappointment; i didn't pick up anything. ugh. but i did see this pair of americaya white heels, $46, that i love - BUT the outlet i was at was out of stock in my size (38 - *hinthint.)

so the shops in bold, were the ones i purchased something from.

here's what i bought.
. brown 3/4 leggings (finally! i have leggings to wear my long-short outfits with! yay!)
. black long leggings
. green print tube dress (it was so damn gorgeous, i wore it, and instantly bought it - no questions asked)
. turquoise-blue capped sleeved dress (very stepford wives-ish; it's the one which screams, take me to your mother!! hahaha.)
. green print backless top (it was at an absurd price, BUT i intend to get a tailor to make me outfits with this basic look; so let's call this a really big splurge.)
. bright blue loose fit top/dress (i don't wear this colour, but i figured to give it a try)
. grey spants [sports-pants]
. white vintage top (love the cut, time to meet my tailors!)
. asymmetrical tube dress/skirt

and all for $370+.

i did say i went on a shopping spree yesterday. and that's because my moolah has come in!!! :D



can you tell i'm happy?









Q: do fools fall in love?

(all characters in this story are fictional. any resemblance to any person dead or living is purely coincidental.)

there was this girl, who fell in love a lot. it was as if, whenever she lay her eyes upon another male, who was more beautiful, more charming, more endearing then the previous, she would say she's found The One.
there is no such thing as The One, her best friend would say.
of course you'd think there isn't such a thing as The One, you've never met him. the reply came as a quick jab but does little harm.
it's not my fault that men are idiots.
you can't say that, if you don't give them a chance.
still, there is no such thing as The One.
given that, it doesn't mean that you can't find SOMEone.

yes, the best friends were different - like yin and yang, day and night, blueberry tea and honey milk. both worlds apart, but great together.

over the years, they grow up. it is expected for the girl who loved to love to be loved and love in return, and the best friend who didn't love, never to find love. maybe this is what maintains the balance of 'The Game'.

A: who truly is the fool? the one who never found love, or the one who got all the love in the world?









today's activity: filtering my coming week.

incoming:
5 print ads & 5 tvcs
2 1/2 days of filming/photography
$500
$200
2d1n at bintan - and a new short film
shopping for a new wardrobe
picking up work's leftovers
((jewelfest & $2500+)) <-- oh, i hope to get this.

outgoing: my love life









Q: when do you know you two are not meant to be?

you've given so much, and tried so hard. but somethings just don't work.
you've got the wrong key in hand, and the wrong keyhole in mind.
sometimes, all you need to do is know that it doesn't fit, and move on.

A: when you can't meet each other eye to eye, and laugh about it.









it's all in the physics
a little push and a little pull
newton's law doesn't say i'd fall for you
damn right he didn't

random: i like it when it thunders, because the air smells like rain



















decisions are hard to make, and are harder to follow through.

sometimes, all we need is a backtripping session to remind us what we've lost and let go of, to get us on the right track to where we should be going and where we want to be.

backtripped on Monday to 'my little secret tucked away in a corner' - Aug 30, 2005









the random weather of late has got me feeling all flustered: hot and cold
who do i, or can i, find fault in? my sense of touch.


we have to touch to know what it feel likes;

we have to get burnt to know what hot is like,

we have to get frost bites to know what is biting cold.

people tell us don't or you'll get hurt, but we're all stupid really


now when i told you not to run because you'll fall

you ran anyway, and got yourself burnt and frozen.

can i just say, i told you so?



now you know, what's hot and what's cold, and what's love.









Q: is it considered a lie to speak in half-truths?

'make up your mind, he's waiting for you.'
'i've made up my mind, and i can't wait to tell him.'
'then tell him now, and tell him true.'
'oh waitasecond. tell who what why when?'

A: i don't blame people for calling me a sphinx.



















think it absurd and i will love you more.
think it crazy and i will hug you till you breathe not.

thanks for those who believed it absurd and crazy; you make me happy.

ain't my life a peach?
damn i hate peaches.

this blog was relevant to a ms. valerie anne from when she was studying mass communications in a singapore polytechnic.

she was aged 16 on her first post, and 18 on her last.

she is currently a freelance emcee-er/hostess.
contact her at
valerieanne @ cheerful.com

some might call me the ultimate sagittarian; free-spirited and whatnot, but i don't believe in horoscopes.

"everything gets complicated when you think. i don't discourage thinking, it's over thinking that i'm worried about." - val


none existent.


i've moved on.

shop alot?


. make Valerie Anne are big name
. publish a book entitled "you better quote val, or else" - recommended by derek goh
. open a clip-on earrings shop
. open a cafe
. learn/speak spanish
. skydive over mauritius waters
. bungee jump from a suspension bridge
. get back into my dancing shoes
. set a world record for the longest time on a roller coaster ride
. save an endangered species
. AND prove to my mum that i'll be married before 35. HAHA.


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